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I have the most carrying, lovable, affectionate, extremely beautiful girlfriend, That was the first thing that popped in my head as I woke up. I love you Maegan
My mind and emotions are so tangled up in your needs from me and mine from you and neither one of us fully being able to meet them completely. I feel this burn and I could just stare at something for what seems like hours without really seeing it. You’re next to me on the edge of the other side of the bed that we use to hold onto each other like we never wanted to let go and now we are both on the edge. It kills me. I just want you to hold me so we can feel that forever grasp again. I love you. Please just give me strength until this numb phase goes away. You nor I are who we use to be….. In some ways good and in other ways we need to reconnect the pieces of ourselves that made us who we were and are. We can make it through anything as long as we stay in this together.
I was born with an enormous need for affection, and a terrible need to give it.
The best way to look at suffering is with gratitude, that it is happening in order to teach us some very important lesson. It is useless to want suffering to go away. It is impermanent, it will go away anyway, but if we don’t learn the lesson that it is trying to teach us, it will come back in exactly the same manner. — Ayya
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